I Didn't Dream This

I hear the second hand it’s crying

Compare it to my heart am I dying

In and out I breath this breath and I’m trying

To pretend I was not crying

 

And I’ve got plans to see your face again

I’ve got plans to be away from here

No I didn’t dream this, no I didn’t dream this

 

I made a promise to myself

Not to put it all on the shelf

Muddied up with rain clouds and wine

Maybe I won’t make a mess this time

 

And I’ve got plans to see your face again

I’ve got plans to be away from here

No I didn’t dream this, no I didn’t dream this

 

I made a spectacle today

Just couldn’t think of any other way

Take a step and then back again

The stillness of your heart haunts me still

 

And I’ve got plans to see your face again

I’ve got plans to be away from here

No I didn’t dream this, no I didn’t dream this

LULLABY

And I will sing to you a lullaby

I will tell you not to cry

 

I’ll tell you a secret, little girl

It’s in the trees if you listen

It’s in the songs of the birds

It’s all there, the beauty of this life

 

And I will sing to you a lullaby

I will tell you not to cry

 

Remember how your mother holds you

That soft kiss she gives you goodnight

Your little hands remind us

That we were babies too

Long ago memories our mothers cling to

 

Remember little baby that we all love you

Under this big sky and all the coming moons

Under this big sky and all the coming moons

And I will sing to you a lullaby

I will tell you not to cry

Seasonal Love

Summer winds on the grapevine they’re callin’ out to you

Winter memories so faded I wonder if I knew

 

Warm nights green clover I didn’t walk alone

And now I stand in the doorway and there’s a candle lit for you

 

And I miss your touch in the morning so much

That I can’t imagine another season without your love

 

Autumn leaves they carry me back to dark afternoons

Long shadows birds are flyin’ south back to where you roam

 

And I miss your touch in the morning so much

That I can’t imagine another season without your love

 

Winter moon I see you staring right back at me

I wish that I could take you and keep you by my heart

 

And I miss your touch in the morning so much

That I can’t imagine another season without your love

If I Were a Farmer

 

If I were a farmer I would wake at the break of day

And look out on my fields and pray

How I can reap the wheat just to fill your belly.

 

If I were a hunter I would take the day to stalk my prey

And gently take the life that gives you yours

And your child’s.

 

If I were a messenger I would come and find you

With all of the good news that sets your mind at ease

I wanna set your mind at ease.

 

If I were an acrobat high up on my wire

I’d do back flips and balance just to see your

Smiling face looking up at me

 

If I were a miner I would work from dawn to dusk

And bring you the silver and gold that I found in the hills

That bare your name.

 

If I were a messenger I would come and find you

With all of the good news that sets your mind at ease

I wanna set your mind at ease.

 

If I were a painter you would be my muse

And with every brush stroke I would paint the world for you

And maybe make it easier to bare.

 

If I were a messenger I would come and find you

With all of the good news that sets your mind at ease

I wanna set your mind at ease.

 

If I were a farmer.

The Woods

Are you out of the woods yet you ask me again

Are the monsters still clawing behind your eyes, ooo

 

It’s a wonder I’m still standing beside you...alone

It’s a wonder you don’t see the darkness all around me

 

If only I knew the ending right from the start, ooo

Then I would paint our future and I would paint it well

 

It’s a wonder I’m still standing beside you...alone

It’s a wonder you don’t see the darkness all around me

 

One day I’ll be happy and I’ll look back then

Cause life is so crazy and it hurts sometimes

 

It’s a wonder I’m still standing beside you...alone

It’s a wonder you don’t see the darkness all around me

 

Are you out of the woods yet you ask me again.

Distraction

I go over these lines again

Make sure all my things are in place

When I close my eyes I see your face

If I think a lot I forget the pain

Mark my checklist off

And talk about the rain

 

Saw a picture of you just the other day

You were wearing that hat I still keep

Should have known then we could never be

Seems so silly now, wonder if you think of me

 

I’m just waitin’ for the world to distract me

I’m just waitin’ for the world to distract me

 

I drive around

Find a place to be good

Remember things that I should

In your quiet now these echoes are all around

I wonder how I can catch that sound

 

Saw a picture of you just the other day

You were wearing that hat I still keep

Should have known then we could never be

Seems so silly now, wonder if you think of me

 

I’m just waitin’ for the world to distract me

I’m just waitin’ for the world to distract me

 

 

Wild Bird

 

You blanket my cries

I’m a wild wild bird

Undone by the sound

The memory of snow

 

Day and night

I fly around the world

Memories weigh me down

Now time is a glass

And I’m afraid to ask

What that wish was

Long ago now

The soft sinking sand

Breathes all around

 

You blanket my cries

I’m a wild wild bird

I’ll fight for the light

We lost before the war

A single rose

In a withered hand

I wish for you

The soul of the land

 

Youth is gone

Now it’s days between

Memories weigh me down

Now time is a glass

And I’m afraid to ask

What that wish was

Long ago now

The soft sinking sand

Breathes all around


 

Lifeboat

 

Under the cover of night

We hold hands and look into the sky

How lovely stars all around you

And all I do is hope that this will last

Memories forgotten too soon

To understand the reason for goodbye

Yeah to understand the reason for goodbye

 

Gently broken in my hand

I crave again invisible minds

Where we feel something that I see

When I close my eyes and feel past the lies

Yeah when I close my eyes and feel past the lies

 

Far away a lifeboat in the sea

It’s like a dream the waves pulling me

Sometimes when you’re with me

I forget the troubles in my mind

Yeah, I forget the troubles in my mind

 

 

Heartsong

 

Listen can you hear it the voice inside

You can’t see

I know that you don’t care

Whatever came of me

 

But if you listen to my heartsong

I think you’ll find what you need

Four years couldn’t tame your heart

So now I ask you please

 

Look how far I’ve come dear

Look how far I can see

Blame will pull us both apart

Now I see

 

But if you listen to my heartsong

I think you’ll find what you need

I know there’s day when our love can be

Oh please

 

 

Waterfall

 

If my life was a waterfall

Then surely I’d fall into you

I could make it hard

Harder to love me

But then would we see

Such in the end

Finally through mindful advances

This could be more

Than elaborate ends

 

I don’t know where the rain goes

When I’m in your arms

Nothing can touch me

And I can breath

I can breath

 

And later on when my mind’s still

I breath pictures

Pictures of you

And I know there are still places

Places I’ll go to searching for truth

But now I will let myself

Wish I could share it all with you.

 

I don’t know where the rain goes

When I’m in your arms

Nothing can touch me

And I can breath

I can breath

 

 

Little Loon

 

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a yellow moon

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a great big moon

 

I can see faces in the trees

Weeping willow hangin’ over me

 

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a yellow moon

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a great big moon

 

Cherry tree standin’ next to me

Ghosts of what we used to be

Shallow water turns to black

I don’t know if I’m comin’ back

 

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a yellow moon

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a great big moon

 

Stories of times before

When we were young on the lakeside shore

Little babies they grow up fast

Soon to learn these time won’t last

 

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a yellow moon

Ooo little loon, swimmin’ under a great big moon

 

 

Mother Nature

 

Everyone is sayin’ you gotta start now

Everyone is sayin’ but I don’t know how

Too soft to be too long to see

It’s gone

Too soft to be too long to see

It’s gone

I ask for you to keep my heart

For us never to part

 

Now I am here

Ten years have passed

I pick up the pieces but it never lasts

 

Everything I see

Tossed into the weeping sea

Take me to your grave

Where our lives are saved

 

Every day reminds me know

Tender words get me through somehow

 

Now I am here

Floating through space

I thought I could see but it never lasts

 

Everything I see

Tossed into the weeping see

Take me to your grave

Where our lives are saved

 

Everyone is sayin’ you gotta start now…


 

Romance

 

Glass hallways to the depths of your mind

As you sleep there beside me

We hold on no matter the pain

No matter the force that tears us apart

 

Moons over stars a million years away

How to we still feel the heat?

I am gazing and wondering

And forming judgments

On a plane that’s ever impossible to free

 

I wanna turn around

I wanna dance that dance

I wanna see the eyes of true romance

And in the time we proceeded then

To the places we were before we met

 

Small words on the sky

Painting our future before we knew

Don’t make that mistake again

I am done with this fidgeting soul inside

 

Biddy Down the seas have changed

Mellow hearts see the rain

Anyone who’s ever had heart

Remembers the feeling well

Oh well

 

I wanna turn around

I wanna dance that dance

I wanna see the eyes of true romance

And in the time we proceeded then

To the places we were before we met












 

GYPSY

Dried leaves there dead underneath my feet

Looks like this heart’s gonna be broken once again

Dust around me grows as zephyrs turn to wind

I can’t stand this anymore

My dream not to win

There I go again, I’m headed for the door

Lord, you know I’ve seen this so many times before

But I can’t stop the tears just thinking of the day

When I leave this life and all it’s joy and be on my way

 

Twisted and tight in a ball of pain

I lie awake at night just listenin’ to the rain

Sleepin’ there beside me, my hearts friend and enemy

I pray to an empty sky that this is meant to be

There I go again, I’m headed for the door

Lord, you know I’ve seen this so many times before

But I can’t stop the tears just thinking of the day

When I leave this life and all it’s joy and be on my way

 

You don’t know my gypsy ways

No man can hold me

You don’t know my gypsy ways

No man can hold me

 

I step out on to the same road

Steady my my legs be

All I own is on my back

And underneath it all I’m free


 

MY VIOLIN

I left my sore life

I left my so called dreams

I left my broken heart

But I brought my violin

 

Outside the world is movin’

And underneath my wheels are turnin’

And I can feel us goin’ west

 

California up the coast

Big Sur and Jade Beach

I can feel the grass and the green

 

I left my sore life

I left my so called dreams

I left my broken heart

But I brought my violin

 

I lost my heart in Santa Cruz

And found it again in Bellingham

So I gathered up my things and I headed east

 

I ran right into the forest

And slept under a great big tree

Still I missed the mountain breeze

 

I left my sore life

I left my so called dreams

I left my broken heart

But I brought my violin


 

WOULDN'T I BE

 

I’m gonna pack my bags and leave this town

I’m gonna catch that train when it comes around

I’m gonna pack my bags and leave this town

I’m gonna catch that train when it comes around

Wouldn’t I be the one you loved

Wouldn’t I be the one

Wouldn’t I be the one you loved

If only I would come undone

 

I’ve been livin’ like I got no plans

Cause you don’t know what I’ve been dreamin’

You said last night that you might wander

Well now I’m wonderin’

What I’m doin’

 

So it’s cold nights now and I’m cryin’ for rain

Back to the girl that’s always in pain

I tried to fool my heart into staying

But I listened close and now she’s sayin’

 

Wouldn’t I be the one you loved

Wouldn’t I be the one

Wouldn’t I be the one you loved

If only I would come undone

 

Now it’s time to swallow my fear

And place my feet where you’re where you’re not here

Excuse if I’m out of line but I saw the future (Yeah, I saw the future)

And it’s not mine

 

I’m gonna pack my bags and leave this town

I’m gonna catch that train when it comes around

I’m gonna dry my tear and forget what I lack

'Cause you know babyI ain't commin' back

You know baby I ain't commin' back

San Bernard

 

Sun beats down and banks of green

Flies in the shade on a briny wake

Under this washed out sky

I pull my bow across my sting

 

Whispers of my fate faded into the wind

Short of who I was before my sin

With water at my heels

Her touch on my hand

 

And the waters of San Bernard move through me now

And if you listen with a heart and an ear like a child’s

You’ll hear my mournful tune

 

She took my heart and I her song

Sweet love turns to the blackest dawn

My body below the river’s surface

My soul extends to sing my purpose

 

And the waters of San Bernard move through me now

And if you listen with a heart and an ear like a child’s

You’ll hear my mournful tune

 

My body below the river’s surface

My soul extends to sing my purpose

And if you listen with a heart and an ear like a child’s

You’ll hear my mournful tune